Heart Problems -peers-

Recently i discovered Mark Twain quotes and it caught my gaze and of course mind,not my first time to see that kind of phrases but it think it is very suit,brilliant in a same time ,not offensive. It said  " never argue with stupid people,they will drag you down to their level and beat you with experience" Listen, "beat you with experience" ?? Does that mean because of these peep,there's possibility of phobia-tic situation? and how to handle it? Yes,i do act like an idiot,i'm asking that kind of riddle because I've been in that situation,really. I've been facing a slight trauma for least time,once a week and that caused by peers. Who knows peers could be that deceiving,terrific? The pressure comes from unalike personality in each others. People might say,contrasting personality make friendship better,but i don't find that is veracious. Different people different opinion. Is it true? Sometimes we have similar thought in each others mind and vice versa. That.That leads to ache in hearts. Hahahaha,i think i'm talking nonsense,but that's just what i want to express,too much.   Actually there's too much in my mind .I want everyone to read but isn't that obvious? Rather than giving 'article like' post.i should write something beneficial,humor?hahha..nevemind then..should focus more on next semester. 8 December 2013. New sem,new chapter..love ya !

minasan,oyasumi ! (^_^)

 

"can we meet again someday?"

"sure we will."

"promise?"

"promise ! Now go ,don't look back."

-THE LAST MEETING -

     Once upon a time someone wrote this to a girl .

"fair girl,why do you send your thoughts to the sky? The wind carries them aloft to mingle with the crows. Trimmed with blue, your flags fly again today."

1 January 2013

1/1/2013
time already passes.it's new year today. everyone wishing for something new and better. the same goes with me. i want to forget you. i don't want to remember you anymore. give me a new shine,please.i want to move into a new world. i know today's evening breeze is not the same as yesterday,yet i still wishing for breeze at that time. it's a different feeling.could i feel it anymore? but still today i wrote to friends,that my best memories in 2012 was on August 2. if i had a time machine,i want to go back at that time.

31 december 2012

is it true that people should not dwell into their past? maybe it's true,totally true but if that past is very meaningful to them,does they have just to forget all of them? even the memories is the only memories they have?even that will just make them miserable? does i have to forget those memories?can't i keep that in my heart? sometimes people become blinded by these short happiness,i now will believe and always believe that things doesnt just go on with what  we think. life is this hard,right? even there is shine behind these hardship,the miserable feeling is always there too.why the feeling don't just go away  and let us just enjoying the shine of life? for how long more must i bear this painful feeling? i've always said that i want to forget everything and act like nothing happened,but am i that reliable? i'm just a normal person. i have this feelings. why i have to trough this? there are thousand of indescribable feels in my heart that i can't tell others. people may see i'm smiling and looking at the future,but what a regret i still remembering the past that i should let go. what a pitiful me. i'm sorry-the words that i really want to say to my own self right now. i'm sorry for making me this miserable right now. i'm an idiot person,why i still thinking about the person who have hurted my precious heart. that person does not even thinking about you . why i know him? it would have been better if i haven't met you,right? i don't want to say that i have a regret feelings,i don't want. because if i haven't met you,i wouldn't know the person who really appreciate me for who i am. i'm thankful because i met the person who is really kind to me. but sometimes it changed. the most kind person that i have ever met is the most bad person that i ever met. how can you say about that? i've always wanted everyone to understand what i'm saying but i know that impossible. it's me.i am.i want to move without any regret to the future.can i do that?