1/1/2013
time already passes.it's new year today.
everyone wishing for something new and better.
the same goes with me.
i want to forget you.
i don't want to remember you anymore.
give me a new shine,please.i want to move into a new world.
i know today's evening breeze is not the same as yesterday,yet i still wishing for breeze at that time.
it's a different feeling.could i feel it anymore?
but still today
i wrote to friends,that my best memories in 2012 was on August 2.
if i had a time machine,i want to go back at that time.
is it true that people should not dwell into their past?
maybe it's true,totally true but if that past is very meaningful to them,does they have just to forget all of them?
even the memories is the only memories they have?even that will just make them miserable?
does i have to forget those memories?can't i keep that in my heart?
sometimes people become blinded by these short happiness,i now will believe and always believe that things doesnt just go on with what
we think.
life is this hard,right? even there is shine behind these hardship,the miserable feeling is always there too.why the feeling don't just go away
and let us just enjoying the shine of life?
for how long more must i bear this painful feeling?
i've always said that i want to forget everything and act like nothing happened,but am i that reliable?
i'm just a normal person.
i have this feelings.
why i have to trough this?
there are thousand of indescribable feels in my heart that i can't tell others.
people may see i'm smiling and looking at the future,but what a regret i still remembering the past that i should let go.
what a pitiful me.
i'm sorry-the words that i really want to say to my own self right now.
i'm sorry for making me this miserable right now.
i'm an idiot person,why i still thinking about the person who have hurted my precious heart.
that person does not even thinking about you .
why i know him? it would have been better if i haven't met you,right?
i don't want to say that i have a regret feelings,i don't want.
because if i haven't met you,i wouldn't know the person who really appreciate me for who i am.
i'm thankful because i met the person who is really kind to me.
but sometimes it changed.
the most kind person that i have ever met is the most bad person that i ever met.
how can you say about that?
i've always wanted everyone to understand what i'm saying but i know that impossible.
it's me.i am.i want to move without any regret to the future.can i do that?
